Alone at last

So the boy tells me the other day that it's getting closer to him moving out, do I want the chairs in the spare room. He says they don't have any, not sure who they is, I was between calls for work, then he went out before I could ask. I did say yes to the chairs, what the hell do I want them for, there's a reason they are in the spare room LOL. Mixed feelings going on here. When he moves out, that will be the last of them and I'll be all alone. At first I was sad, then I looked at the spare room, okay with the snake tank gone, the chairs out, his chest of drawers and bookshelf moved on and the desk gone, I'd actually have a room I could use. Yep me use a spare room for something I want to put in there.

I moved onto his room, hmmmm could get the treadmill up here, there's a connection for cable, and I've got 2 spare TV's. Also there's a built wardrobe I could use. Then there's the shed, doesn't have as much of his stuff in it, but if he takes the dining table and chairs that are in there, I could actually put gardening stuff inside. As the girls moved out, it seems that he spread out and used up more and more space in the house. It's not a big house by any means, hence so much crap in the spare room, but I can spread out and it would be less cluttered.

I opened up a cupboard, oh he can have that, and that, those are his, he won't get those as much as I know he wants them, hmmm with all that gone, maybe I won't need this spare cupboard in here, it can go in the shed to store all my gardening stuff. Opened the linen cupboard, so there's my sheets jammed in hanging precariously off a shelf, and his nicely placed, his out mine not shoved it and squashed up. Take out his towels and spare blankets and quilts, and I'm sure I'd have at least 2 spare shelves, ahhh bliss. He doesn't have much of his own stuff in the bathroom, except for the normal shaving accruments and his own soap and toothbrush, but that's ok I'm sure I can get rid of shitload of stuff anyway by foisting it off on him.

Back in the kitchen, I'm thinking the dresser could go in the spare room too, it's only here for storage of pc stuff, but I do like the shelves that hold my plates, so maybe not. Oh forgot about the chip fryer, it's not even ours he borrowed it off a mate and it's been here stagnating and fermenting ever since, that will definitely go. I'll put it in the first load.

Then there's the food, I will actually be able to go shopping and come home with maybe just 2 bags full of groceries rather than 10. One for the cat and one for me. The electricity and gas bills will be heading on a downward spiral, the phone bill will be non existent. I won't be driving him to work, so petrol will not be an issue. No more buying a million and one different soakers and sprays to try and get the crap out of his work clothes. I have $ signs in my eyes and can here the kaching of savings, or spendings but all on me and for me.

It seems as if I've been sitting in idle for years as I raised the kids and waited for my chance. My chance to save and travel, my chance to actually go out shopping without thinking about buying something for someone other than myself. Although there is all the grandkids to buy for and spoil, no stop it, think self self self. I have never been alone, gone from home to a defacto then marriage, then kids, and alone with kids, then marriage and then alone with kids. I'm not sure if I like the idea of alone, but it sounds almost like a holiday for now, so I'll bask in it for awhile before I start harrassing the girls and dropping in unannounced to see the grands LOL. (don't panic girls I won't really hehehe).

Being alone used to scare me, I didn't want to grow old alone, I still don't really, but it doesn't send me into panic mode like it used to. I actually have a chance to be selfish, and fuck it, I think I will. Oh, with all my spare time, I will be able to plan to take over the world hehehehe.

Catch ya
Cathy